Mommy Moments: Song from a Mom's/Dad's Heart

I saw this video at youtube and felt sad, because this reminds me and my husband when we lost our first baby on stillborn. The lyrics of this song is what exactly we felt when we were grieving for our lost. "I remember thinking, "this is not real/true, this can't be happening, this isn't happening. I remember both of us crying out, I remember Matt crying out, I remember him holding me, and both of us sobbing." On that moment our bereaved life changes in the instant." I still cry every time I think of her... and blames myself for I think that it was all my fault why she died. The doctor tried to explain with me that it wasn't my fault or the things I did or didn't do. Can you blame me for feeling that way still? I love her so much! Though I know we would be able to be reunited with her someday, knowing that she not here, makes me feel empty still. She was back to Heavenly Father for a reason of which I don't know...but am sure she is happy that we are doing our "best" here on earth just to be with her someday! I know for sure that "Families Can Be Together Forever.....someday."

"ONE MORE DAY"
sung by: Rocket Club Band

I'll never get to hold you
I'll never hear your sweet voice sing
I'll never get to say 'I told you so'
I'll never read to you, or get to teach you anything
But you'll always be my hope
You'll always be my first light
You're always gonna be Daddy's little girl
You'll always be the strength I need to make it in this world
I only wish for one more day
I'm gonna miss your first day of school
I'll never see you turn that page
I'll never see you in your graduation gown
And I'm never gonna see you coming of age
But you'll always be my hope
You'll always be my first light
You're always gonna be Mommy's little girl
You'll always be the strength I need to make it in this world
I only wish for one more day
Sweet angel of mercy
Coming down to comfort me
Faith, sit right here beside me
I never want you to go away
I'm always gonna wonder how you'd look
Always gonna wish I took your place up there
You'll always be our hope
You'll always be our first light
You're always gonna be our little girl
You'll always be the strength we need to make it in this world
We only wish for one more day
We only wish for one more day."

And here the song I always and still sing to Jacob entitled: "Mary's Lullaby to Jesus."

Reading Books with Daddy

These are few of the reading sessions my son and hubby did. As you can see, they ready anywhere, anytime, and in any position, lol! I find it very amusing to see these guys read books. Me, I read book with Jake every night before he goes to bed...for he wouldn't sleep without it. I am glad that my son loves books. He can now read simple book and that to me is awesome. I couldn't read the book till I was in second grade or when I was eight year old; and here my son who only six year old!

As what my son always says: reading is fun!

I am a firm believer that when you read to your kids when they are still young, it will help them a lot especially on their speech development and communication skills as well as appreciation on book and how important it is to read when they get older. Hubby and I read at least 15-30 minutes a day with our son...and that short time makes big difference in our son's lives.

Mommy Moments: Valentine's Day

For us, Valentine's Day is everyday and that is the reason why we didn't go anywhere like we used to during this day; instead I just made a nice lunch for us. Hubby and son gave me a surprised flowers, chocolates, and cards the day before. My husband on the other hand got his card from me. Attached are photos of them. The foods I have prepared will be posted on My Kitchen Blog for Food Trip Friday.


If you noticed, I have posted same pictures on my other two blogs (if you happened to visit them). Sorry, for I didn't realize that Valentine's Day would be the theme at Mommy Moments this week. Oh well, hope you, guys won't get tired of seeing these here, too!

Any Idea Why Jacob Was Crying?

One night before going to bed, my son and I decided to play Zingo. This is like a Bingo game only instead of numbers, it is a picture/drawing that you put into your card. Jacob loves this game which was a gift from his Aunt (Kristin) for Christmas. This is an enjoyable game a family could play for during family night or any time you feel like playing. It helps bond us as a family and teaches kid of sportsmanship. Anyway, The first game was won by me and he was fine with that, but when I won the next game, he started crying! Yup, we do need the same thing to win, but unfortunately, he lost it and here is the result. My husband told me that I was mean because I didn't let Jacob win! He told me he always lets Jacob wins. Was I really mean or what!?

I took the liberty of taking pictures of him crying since the camera was within my reach :-); I just thought it was funny, lol! I didn't expect him to cry, really! Have you, guys had the same moment with your kid/s? Come share it with us!

Valentines Day Edition Have You Would You?

For each of the prompts, you may answer with an image, a sentence or however you want to.Simply copy and paste this into a post on your site and answer the prompts. Be sure to list your a direct link to your post and visit the other participants.

HAVE YOU or WOULD YOU..
Kissed a Cow? Have you ever touched one?

No, I am not desperate enough to do that, lol!

HAVE YOU or WOULD YOU...
Give your pet a Valentine?

Nope, I don't have a pet yet!

Have you or would you
Do something odd with candy?

Like what?

Have you or would you
gone out with someone based solely on looks?

Honestly, I did once, but fell in - love with him :-).

Have you would you
go out with someone just for the meal?

Why not...it's a free meal :-). As long as I know that person.

Have you or would you
fall in love with 2 different people at the same time?

That is a big NO! I didn't know it's possible!

Have you or would you place anything
before love?


Nope...and never will!

HAVE YOU or WOULD YOU...
believe in true love?

Yes, I do...and found it with none else but my husband :-)!

How would you define true love?Love is a feeling of deep devotion, concern, and affection. The greatest example of God's love for His children is found in the infinite Atonement of Jesus Christ. Love for God and fellow men is a characteristic of disciples of Jesus Christ.

HAVE YOU or WOULD YOU...

send another blogger a Valentine?

I don't know...it depends if that blogger ask for one.

Have you or would you do something
really stupid in the name of love?
Who haven't?

HAVE YOU or WOULD YOU...

Write a really cool Monday Mayhem ?

I don't think I can make a meme as cool as this one :-)!

Mommy Moments: Message of Love

I have missed MM twice and now, I am glad to be back again :-). This week theme is about "Message of Love" and I would like to have my share here...I am a woman of few words, I would rather express my love to my husband and loved ones in words, and or through hugs and kisses. My husband is the same while our son is very expressive of his love toward us both in words and actions. He constantly give me hugs and kisses without being asked. Just like this afternoon, he gave me hugs and kisses while I was blogging and he was sitting next to me watching TV. And just before he went to bed, he gave me this drawing saying he loves me, Daddy and Teddy.

And here a picture of us taken this morning right after we played a snowballs fight outside :-). He was telling me how thankful he was for letting him play outside even though it is cold and he was coughing. On the other hand, I express my love to hubby by saying I love you every time we go to bed and before he goes to work. I also made him his fave foods and shows my support when he needs it the most.

It's Snowing and Falling...

Before the alarm went off this morning, the phone rang twice, but didn't leave a message. So. I didn't bother to get up. Finally when the alarm went off, Jacob and I jumped out of bed to get ready for school. On my way to the kitchen, I picked the phone up to check who have called earlier. I have found out that it was Ate Delia; so I called her back to see what was wrong.She told me that it is snowing, good enough, the ground is cover with snow. That is the reason why she didn't go to work because she is very scared driving on the road with thick snow. Anyway, to make it short, she told me not to send Jake to school for the reason that it would be hard for me to drive. I appreciate her concern, but I am not the one driving, it is Matt who'll come home from work. I checked on the news and realized that the school district has not cancel school yet, plus it is Valentine's Day party at my son's school and he wouldn't want to miss it. Good thing there will be no school tomorrow due to Staff/Teacher Development day. Well. the temperature is dropping so fast and the snow will continue till tomorrow. Seems like Spring is not going to be over yet soon :-(...wahhh...am so tired of cold weather. Here are few picture I took this morning...

Outside our apartment....

Jake and Daddy on the way to school...

On the other side of our apartment.

The Biopsy Test Result

Finally, my most awaited day of the week has come. Matt and I went to see my doctor to get the result from the renal biopsy done a week ago. I was eager but not nervous, not nervous because I have prayed to my Father in Heaven for the result. I prayed that whatever would that be, I will gladly accept it because I know in my heart that He has a reason why things happen. Anyway, the result was back and it came out normal. There was scarring to the transplanted kidneys but was normal due to the mismatch they did when they tested my blood for a match. Since the kidneys came from a cadaver donor, scarring in my kidney is normal and there is nothing my doctors can do to treat it. He said that kidney from cadaver donor would most likely to last only last from 10 to 15 years if I am lucky, whereas if it came from a living donor, the chance would be a maximum of 25 years. With the outcome of the biopsy, I am satisfied and could never ask for more. I am glad my worries about losing my kidney is over because they have found no signs of rejection. We are happy and satisfied and that's all I want. Till then, will update more on my next post.

Bored and Misses Jacob!

Who would have thought that my follow up visit with my doctor turned out to be a three days stay at the hospital. Yes, I am still here and will not be going home till tomorrow morning. As what we've expected, my blood count was very low, blood sugar was extremely high! My doctor ordered me to stay for iron infusion, blood transfusion and renal/kidney biopsy. Okay, I thought they will let me go home since the biopsy was done already at 9am, but no, they want to observe if there will be some bleeding. No bleeding...and I am still here, not to mention that I didn't hear anything yet with regards to the biopsy they've done. Now, am here bored and looking like zombie because of lack of sleep :-(. I miss my son so much; hope to see him tonight. However, after the blood transfusion, I feel much better now:-); I pray that nothing is wrong with my kidneys. Anyway, will be back blogging as soon as I recover from all of these. Thanks for the visit, guys :-)! And most of all, thanks to Mary and her family who helped look after Jake while I am gone.

Jake's Art Work

My son is in to drawing and art and crafts; and here are few of them. His art works are all over our bedroom door. his bedroom door and closet door!

This is done during their Christmas Party.
He said this is how his puppy would look like one we get him one
His fave stuffed toy, Teddy (he couldn't sleep without it).
Charlie Brown, his fave character in classic animated show, Snoopy
He drew himself petting his puppy to be :-)