Hubby and I wanted to have at least 2 kids, but because of my difficult pregnancy every time, one of our first baby died when she (Ruth) was still inside my tummy (stillborn). I was about 7 months pregnant with her when we found out the she stopped breathing during one of my routine check ups with my OB-GYNE. The reason wasn't clear yet, so they did an autopsy...the result was inconclusive :-/. My OB said that lack of fluid...but not really sure about it. What about that? Don't blame me if I hated that doctor for awhile there. To this day, hubby and I are wondering whether my hypertension and spilling of protein in my urine have something to do with it. The caused of her death is still a big puzzle to us. Anyway, whatever the reason was, we know God only know why. The only thing that give us comfort is that someday' we will be 'reunited with her' again. I do have a picture when I was pregnant with Ruth, but couldn't find it....same thing with Jake. So I am re posting this photo of Jake when he was at NICU.
After we lost Ruth, my Nephrologist advised me to not get pregnant again because it will be very risky for me and the baby, not to mention that it would make my kidney disease worst. And he was right. We didn't listen...we got pregnant again....yeah we planned it for we felt that God is going to bless us because we were doing the right thing.
Jacob was born two months early; he was a preemie and needed to stay at NICU for a month just to gain weight. He didn't have any medical issues...just needed to gain weight because he only weighed 4.3 pounds. I delivered him through c-section because he was coming out breech. I stayed at the hospital for three days; then was discharged only to go back again after four days for I had an infection. They open my tummy again to find out what was going on. I was at the hospital for a month. The doctors tried to figure out what was the caused of infection; with all the antibiotic I was taking...my fever still wouldn't go away...so the surgeon told me that they needed to open it again too determine the caused, and I said "NO!" I said: "if you do that again, I might not survive it. I feel fine and I think I am going to be alright without another surgery." And I was right. I recovered from that infection and went home with my son after a month.
Okay, the side effect of that second pregnancy was my kidney disease has worsen, and my kidney eventually failed. I have gone to a dialysis for 8 months, then had a transplant. It's been five years since the transplant and I am doing fine. Thank God for His wondrous blessings. With that, I am forever grateful for HIM! If you would ask me if I'd do it again, my answer is "YES!" I would do it over and over again!